My birthday's a few days away and I'm still being controlled by my mother. I was talking to someone on the phone, for a while only, then she came into the room and asked me to stop talking. Now she's in the room asking me to stop typing, she wants to take my computer and phone away if my grades drop! What the hell! Great! Not like I'm doing badly in school. She called me disobedient again. I'm not a freaking dog lah! Sheesh! I can't obey everything you say. Oh, she's damn rude lah, I know she's my mother but she's still damn rude. She picked up the phone when I was talking to my friend, to check if I've stopped talking, cause she gave me 5 minutes to hang up. How can you just stop talking in the middle of the convo? She taught us to never interrupt people's convo, she's not practising what she teach.

I can't live my own life. Everything I do, is according to my parents' plan. I'm some kind of robot. They think I wanna be a nutritionist, they don't know a single thing. They didn't even ask what I wanna do when I finish this course, or why I chose this course.

I'm 18 in less than a week, but nothing's change, don't get extra freedom. Everything is the same as last year, in sec school, go home after school. If go out, come home by 5/6pm. That's why I try to go out if school finishes early, not that I got a lot of money to spend.

The only thing that is different now, is that I can use my comp until very late, don't have to sleep early. But they are starting to control the number of hours I HAVE to sleep. I don't understand what my parents are thinking. I know I should talk to them, I want to, not like I don't want to, I just can't seem to do it. I'm such an idiot sometimes.

I got no mood to celebrate my birthday. Wanted to go out on Saturday, I think that's impossible now, no one's free.

PLEASE LEAVE ME ALONE.